It's Been Awhile

Wow it has been awhile since I have updated this thing. Let’s see a summary of the last two months.

I dated this great and amazing guy, but he just was not my type, things didn't work out (I screwed up big time, but subconsciously was probably doing it on purpose). Over the last month I have dated a few different guys, but I am in no rush. When the timing is right, I will meet (or be with) the person I am supposed to be with forever. There is one guy I have been talking to for over 4 months now, he lives across the country, but has become my confident, and I have become his. We both ask each other for advice and share out dirty little secrets with each other. I know stuff about him that he has not even told his closest friends, and I have trusted him with thoughts and ideas of mine that I have never spoken out loud.

In the last few weeks I have been spending Sundays and Mondays with my daughter, every Monday my roomie and I have a theme day for the kids, last Mondays theme was cooking day and we made green "lilipad" pancakes out of pureed spinach. Next week we are doing a big brunch day, today I bought stuff at the grocery store for it, so that should be fun. Nana just turned 2 two months ago, but she has grown a ton. She is taller, and her vocabulary has multiplied by 10. I don't even recognize her anymore, it's like my little baby has grown up. Looking at her so grown up and independent (yes I know she is only 2), makes me want another child so much, but at the same time I have so much guilt built up from my last pregnancy. I think about it constantly, and it is something I will never forget.

16There are six things the LORD hates,seven that are detestable to him: 17haughty eyes,a lying tongue,hands that shed innocent blood, 18a heart that devises wicked schemes,feet that are quick to rush into evil, 19a false witness who pours out liesand a man who stirs up dissension among brothers