Living The Crazy Life

Where to start . . .

Well I am 20 years old with an almost 2 year old daughter. A few months ago I left her father (the man I had been dating since the age of 16). I realized he was a nobody going nowhere. Since then I have added another busy job to my already busy schedule and have moved in with my two friends and their kids. After first leaving I was really excited and enjoyed my new freedom. I had been stuck with an abusive pot smoking paranoid alcoholic for so long, that I forgot what it was like to be free or feel free. Then reality sank in, I was a lonely single mom struggling to make it, and not able to make ends meet. I became depressed, and felt hopeless. I started cutting again (Something I had not done since high school), I stated drinking, and doing whatever else I could to cope with the stress in my life. A few weeks went by and my friends intervened and helped me to get things somewhat straightened out. Today I am exactly 2 weeks sober. I am still juggling 2 jobs and a full time college schedule, and at the same time spending as much time as possible with my daughter. Things are crazy, but that is not always a bad that. Being busy is helping to keep me distracted from the loneliness I feel.

Till Next Time,

Dreamer4life